Good Morning! I hope your day starts great!
Yes! The title of my first book of poems will be called “Living In A Beautiful Disaster”. This title was picked for several reasons. One reason is because, it’s what I thought I was for many years. A Beautiful Disaster. A person who saw and wanted good, but for some reason always experienced bad in the end. It seemed like joy and pain were married in my life and I was destined to be doomed, but forced to be happy about it. I don’t want to use the wrong name or time, but I believe it all came to me while talking to a young lady that I was trying to be with. It may have become a time when I was trying too hard and possibly for the wrong reasons. We’ll talk more on that at another time.
Beyond that surface level reason, “The Beautiful Disaster” was an album idea I had that never happened. I never could find enough of the right beats nor afford them. Then when I got enough beats, money and recording became an issue. I didn’t want to just record it on my “home studio” because I had so many quality recordings years before. I have a piece of the intro in the book. The intro song was called “The Beautiful Disastrous”. There are some things that I felt were poetic and descriptive. Things that could marry the joy and pain I felt to a person reading or listening. It wasn’t until I added that piece that the book made sense and got it’s official title.
The book won’t be all heartache, pain and disaster. You’re going to get some beautiful things too. You going to get passion, fantasy and desire. You’re going to get lyricism, word play and creativity. You’re going to get some personal thoughts and unconscious art. Those are the reasons this book exist. When you purchase it and you read it, I want you to feel things. I want an emotional connection to some of these pieces. I want the energy to radiate off of the pages. So when you feel that, let me know.
Living In A Beautiful Disaster is for the writer, the poet, the hip-hop head and the artist. It knows no color, gender or boxed in societal boundary. It’s for the living out loud as much as it is for the dying inside. I know because I’ve been both many times in my life. Now, is my chance to share it with you. I look forward to this experience.
I promise the book is coming soon! Everything in my mind tells me on or before Christmas 2017. So we’ll stick with that. Thank you for reading and we’ll talk soon.
It’s no secret to the people that are close to me that I have been talking about leaving radio. Shoot I’ve even been planning an exit strategy throughout the year.
Right now it’s in the 5AM hour and I’m thinking of Amos Brown’s career and legacy and again understanding why I really got into this industry.
I’m barely 7 years in and contemplating walking away and I knew a man who put in 40 impactful years and affected everyone that knew and listened to him.
Somewhere along my journey, I forgot about the Marathon of Change. In that marathon it’s not about your mind, but more about the path to endure. I often think, why isn’t this changing? Why isn’t this being done? Why are things the way they are? If you ever listened to “Afternoons with Amos” or talked to him off the mic you know, you don’t give up after one wrong answer or no answer. You keep asking the question and make yourself undeniable, unforgettable and the catalyst for all the answers you want.
Sure I’m not making the money I want and of course I want more opportunities to grow, but it’s now crystal clear that walking away for a length of time or forever isn’t going to make that happen either. I’ve got until the day I die to get my point across and I’m going to do exactly that.
I soft shoe shuffled, came to a halt and even dropped to my knees in this race. I’m officially back up and ready to keep running. Cause there really is no place I’d rather be than Broadcasting.
Hope you all have a great morning, no matter what you are going through.
Tomorrow morning, I officially unveil the title of my book! I’m so anxious to reveal the title that I’m not even sure why I’ve spent the first few days of this month being secretive, ha! As a new writer, I know I have to build some awareness. No one really knows who I am, so I got to talk myself up a bit to get people interested in the product. I’d rather the idea of promotion on social media than anything else, so this has actually been fun for me.
I have some ideas. Some that will give intrigue and still not give away too much of the books content. When the cover is finalized I will do more with that as well. The real work will start when the book is for sale. I don’t want to get too wrapped up into that though. The content will find it’s audience and I will appreciate that audience. I will interact and show love to them. They will be the reason many more books and projects come. For that reason alone, they can’t be taken for granted. I crave the organic build. I want it to be as natural and effortless as coming up with the compositions for #LIABD. I would like to get another person’s eyes on the content. Just to make sure there are no misspellings or “mixed words”.
Well enough rambling. LIABD are your first and final clues. Care to take a guess?
Title reveal comes tomorrow no matter what!
What do you do when there’s no love?
When you can’t feel that belonging or connection?
When everything you feel is hopeless
And everything you try is irrelevant
What do you do?
When patience doesn’t seem to be enough?
When the time either stands still or is tough?
When your dream isn’t as smooth
Because life has been real rough
What do you do when there’s no love?
Do you cry?
Do you hate?
Can you just move forward?
What do you do?
I’m feeling the need to pour my mind out in various ways. I have so many thoughts and ideas. I realize that there are two kinds of people in this world. Those who live by the book. The vanilla, straight and narrow square pegs. Then there are those who rip the pages out of the book and draw a picture in color pencil. The ones that even as they get older they never lose their youthful spirit and vibrance. They live on their terms and the world can’t define or confine them. I feel more in touch with the latter as I continue to write here and grow mentally.
Making lifestyle changes has been very instrumental as well. Working out about 5 days a week. Changing my eating habits and keeping my mind sharp by reading and writing has been a big help so far. My book has given me a real reason to be on social media and my new life goal structure has given me greater focus on importance and real rewards.
I feel a separation. Not just a separation from “The Pack”, but a separation of who I am as I prepare to be who I want to be. None of that happens without growth and change. I’m not sure how these changes will show to the outside world. I just know I’m ready to be better than ever.
We take a deeper dive into the Survivor Series teams and talked a lot of Braun Stowman this weeks. We also speak on the potentially elite class that Braun Strowman is in and why he may never need a title cause he may be over forever. That “Guaran DAMN Tee’s” and What older wrestlers we would like to see if they had another full time run in them on this weeks #FirstBlackChamp Podcast