I’m in an odd space today. My grandma passed this year and honestly, a lot of my personal life has come tumbling down with that moment. She’s gone, my Mom and I got into it over a personal matter and although there’s been no hostile angry or bitter exchange, my daughter’s mother and I don’t have the greatest relationship.
On this Mother’s Day, I’m going to take the time out to look in the mirror. Understand where I’m falling short. Looking at what I want and how I go about getting it. Where is my focus? How can I build and maintain better relationships with women? Sometimes making yourself the common denominator is the only way you will reach true resolution.
With that being said, let me think on what to do with my time today. Let that time to think today make me better for tomorrow.
If you are a mom or if you’re expecting to be a mom, Happy Mother’s Day. You perform a beautiful act of God and we should respect, love and secure you because of that alone. Condolences to everyone who has lost their mom or the mother in their life. I know a day like this or any other special day can’t be easy. A sincere prayer for you to cope will be said by me today.
Happy Sunday. Happy Mother’s Day. Love
Man, how the tide can turn
The world of social media
Can turn reality upside down
The quest for likes shares and follows
Attention, acknowledgement and praise
Filters washing the blemishes
Photoshop clearing the haze
Too much consumption
Will put your mind in an ugly place
The girl that once confidently stood
On the please don’t inbox
And Never is when I would
Will be in the reactions and thread
Of that very same man
Cause that recognition feels too good
That man that shoots his shot
Like open gym with no attendees
Is ridiculed, screenshot and posted
Until his wedding day pics with his queen
Man, how the tide can turn
How the emotion changes or fades
A world that promotes you should post consistently
While humans evolve any hour in a day
I’m in a very anxious mood. I want to make a move, but I’m not exactly secure about the future. It’s hard to break away of the employee mindset and worker mentality. Somedays I’m not so confident that I can go out there and make my own money and that being enough to live comfortably.
Second guessing and living with a hint of anxiety will play major tricks on you. It’s hard to tell if you’re coming or going and what your destination is at times.
What I need is a mental break, from everything. I’ve been having to do a lot of thinking about a lot of different aspects of life and it’s honestly draining me in ways I didn’t expect. Now I feel bombarded all at once. Happiness starts from within and that is the largest step to success.