Fear of The Loan

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I woke up this morning with action on my mind. I have 2 business ideas that I want to start but to be honest, the life I live won’t even afford me the capital to get the legal paperwork for them. I’ve cut every corner possible except for rent. If it was just me, I’d live in a car for about 4-6 months just to get the money to get these businesses started. That’s not a reality, so I’m just going to dead it.

I’m not saving enough, fast enough, so I’m really flirting with the idea of getting a loan. I’ll be honest, I’m not crazy about the thought of it, but I feel I’m out of legal options. Plus, ever since I seen Mark Cuban say “Don’t take out a loan, because it’s the worst thing for a new business owner” I’ve been on the “let me hustle up some coin route and unfortunately it’s going slower than I would like. True, I don’t want to start a business in the hole and already owing someone or some entity, but I also don’t want to wait another year or so to start the businesses.

I’m keeping faith I will get this money, but my reality is slapping me in the face. That reality is, I don’t know likeminded people that want to be in the same industries that I want to be in, the way I want to be in them. I don’t have many resources to pool together to get started. At least the loan would put me in the game to say “These companies exist”. I know from experience most people want to attach themselves to something that already runs, not build it from the ground up.

Maybe this loan situation is just a scare tactic my mind is using against me. Maybe a loan is exactly what I need, so I can began the work to make the money back and have functioning businesses. I’m going to put positive energy to this and come up with a great solution soon.

Business and Passion

The last couple weeks have been very educational. I’ve come to some very harsh realizations and I’m secure with them. It has made me wise and given me the next step that is much needed. I’ll save the details of that for a later time.

I was intent on making my passion for broadcasting my business again. A conversation lead me to the realization that I may have been willing to sacrifice too much of myself and my passions to do that. I no longer what to live in a world of compromise. Compromise of myself and my feelings that is. I’m also over the rat race. The world of the glass ceiling. The world of kiss the right ass and being fake friends as a means to barely get by. I don’t want to do that because it sucks the love out of the things that I have sincere passion to do.

I like my no filter, unbridled approach to creating. I don’t want to sacrifice, compromise or fallback because of a paycheck. I also don’t want to be amongst people I feel are piss poor as humans. To stay on a positive train, I know all I need is funding. So with that said, it’s going to be a very selfish year for me. The days of me over extending myself to make others dreams a reality are over. I’m taking control of my life and my circumstance. As of this week, my passion is my business and business is picking up.