I haven’t had the best visits to Freeport since my Grandma’s been sick and gone, but I know I have to get better at visiting her every time I arrive and leave here.
Today I apologized to her. I know I’ve messed up and I’m not doing what I’m supposed to do. I then promised her that I would do better. Emotionally, financially, family and relationship wise; all of it! I’m going to improve starting today.
I know she’s with me everyday but I wanted to get as close to her physical form as possible today. It’s hard to speak to her without crying. It’s hard to lose the only person you feel loves you and cares. I never thought life would be this way, but I won’t give up because it is.
Today is a day of rededication. A rededication to my gift, my purpose and my growth.
Thanks for the talk, Grandma. I love you.
It’s 2020 for real today. No, I’m not going to waste time with a cliche vision parallel.
What I will say is this. I made 10 very realistic goals. Those goals all align with my passions and purpose. It’s going to take great discipline and impeccable dedication. With that in place, I could really get everything I want before summer ends. So I got to get to work.
I’m looking at this goal list this morning and I truly understand that if I complete 1, 5 or all 10 task that it was something I did or didn’t do. My fate is firmly in my own hands and I got to do something with it. I like the feeling though. This lets me know that my mind is shifting and I’m breaking away from a conditioned uniform mentality and I am holding myself accountable for my lifestyle. Not a company or another person; Me. Every single month of this year should get me closer to my goals.
So let’s get to work! The better side of life, is on the other side of sacrifice.
Yesterday, I woke up being thankful. Today, I wake up understanding that there is still work to do and I have to change my circumstance. I truly am ready to take on this new life that is ahead of me. It’s time that I begin to force the issue of better with my discipline and actions in difficult times.
Life constantly improves. I just want it to be the best it can possibly be.
It’s November. I’m up 5 pounds which puts me officially at 35 pounds away from my goal and that’s not cool. So the next challenge is real simple. Go into lifestyle mode. That means do the following.
- Weight train all 4 weeks minimum 5 days a week
- Limit our heavy carbs and starches to 1 day a week max
- Maximize green vegetable consumption
- Intermittent fasting, because I like psychological nature of it
- Really hit that gallon of water or more per day
This isn’t a “diet plan” or “something to do” this month as a conversation piece. I’m really about this life and I’m becoming addicted to the results. It’s a good addiction. There’s is clarity and new found mental strength in good health. As I approach 40 I want to be better than I ever been. It’s an inside and out job and the biggest part of health and life evolution is not being who you were at 16, 18, 21, 25 and 30.
November is the month we set the tone for 2020! Let’s FAWKING GOOOOO!!!!!
Between reading my goals last night and waking up this morning, I increased my fire for change. I took September more serious than probably any other month in the last few years as far as my health goes. I want this achievement so bad that it literally made me think to myself and say out loud.
“If I weight 235lbs or more at the end of this month and look the same…I’ll be pissed!”
That statement came after being asked if I wanted pretzels or chips from the store. My response was “Honestly Neither”. It’s a cycle thing. I don’t want to get into the cycle of heavy carb consumption and not monitoring what I put in my body. I want to continue this great workout I received and keep seeing and feeling those constant gains. I really want the lifestyle change that I have been chasing and failing at for over 10 years.
As I increase my knowledge, create goals and challenge myself through monthly disciplines, it’s a reminder that I can do anything! The question is am I really down to put in the work and make the sacrifices needed to get what I want. Now more than ever in life I can answer, “Hell Yeah I do! LET’S GET TO IT!
The goal is still 215 by December 31st. 27 more days to let the work speak for itself.