I woke up this morning feeling like the latest life occurrences just sunk in. I’m very proud of myself right now. I said I couldn’t be stopped and I let nothing stop me.
I walked away from my broadcasting career with no plan. I just walked away knowing that I wanted to be treated better and that I deserved more. I now have two podcast that I am very proud of and when I have an opportunity to interview artist, I seize it and they show me an overwhelming amount of respect. I knew I could do this. It feels great to prove it.
I took my uncertainty, my hurt, my fear of poverty and homelessness and turned it into art. I added some love, appreciation and hope and turned it all into a book. A book that I physically held in my hands. Holding that proof felt surreal. It was like I was holding new life in my hands. Like I had the power to do absolutely anything. I don’t think I’ve ever felt that before.
My friends are flourishing in their fields. They are doing what they want with their lives. They are being recognized. They are getting promoted, being offered new opportunities and they are gaining respect. Most importantly they are getting what they deserve because they have earned it. How can you not celebrate and appreciate that? Although it’s all about them, I take pride in knowing prosperous, hungry, great and successful people. It lets me know I am on a great path with great people.
I feel accomplished. I feel great because I did it for me. I doubled down on myself and won. All I did was not give up on myself. You can never give up. You can never stop. Even when it hurts. Even when you can’t see the finish line, you have to keep going for it. If your dreams are really yours. Never stop going for them.
Have a great week!
It’s Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. day and this is one of my favorite quotes from him.
Once I truly began to understand what this quote really meant, my life change. Taking that first step out on faith is why I got into broadcasting. It’s why I created BehindTheRhyme.com and why I’ve pursued this media passion even further while making no money from it for the last year and a half. I have faith that because when I create in this media space I feel complete. I don’t tire or get frustrated. The words fail, quit and move on are non existent when I’m in this space. That’s how I was meant to live life. The staircase to my dream is there. I just have to keep on stepping in this direction. When I was getting paid as a member of the media, the journey got very difficult. A lot of resistance, rejection and “No”. I never let that completely stop me, but it did make this journey within the system difficult. Now, I’m doing everything that got a “No” from others and the feeling is euphoric. That makes it all worth while. Do I want it to pay off? YES! Immediately! However, I want to love it and that means more than anything and is the most valuable piece of this puzzle.
My dream is to master conversation and storytelling. I feel I get closer to that mastery every day I crack a mic or set up a camera. Who knows when the day of mastery will come. All I know is I’m enjoying every mile of the ride.
Salute to Dr. King. A man of great passion, faith and character, who believed his words and actions would change the world. A belief so crazy that it came true in less than 40 years of life. Now his words fuel my dreams and I dream to be as impactful in my own way.
Have a great day!
This week hip-hop took a huge lost as Combat Jack lost his battle with cancer. Combat Jack was a pioneer in the hip-hop media game. Having one of the first if not the first notable and stamped culture driven and supported “underground” independent radio shows/podcast. He also part of starting the Loud Speaker Network along with Chris Morrow. Jack had one of the only platforms that didn’t play the “who’s relevant” card. You were either apart of the culture or your weren’t and that is why I loved the show. It wasn’t about “the music business”. It was about hip-hop culture.
I got a chance to meet Combat Jack briefly. I seen him out at A3C along with J.R. Bang and my guy Gil. Bang shouted him out and he came to the car. That’s a shock seeing we had no relationship, but he showed us love. That was a big deal to us. Bang and Combat spoke quickly about the resurgent Chicago rap scene and who he knew and then he took off. Who knew that moment would mean so much more on this day.
In his passing, the way he closed his show is replaying in my mind.
Dream those dreams. Then man up and live those dreams. Because a life without dreams is Black and White and the universe flows in technicolor and surround sound, BOW!
It sticks out to me because one of my first sayings I would say was “If you ain’t dreaming, you ain’t living”. We can never stop dreaming. Even when we turn dreams to goals and accomplish them. I never want to be a person that stops dreaming.
Combat’s death also has me thinking about change and evolving. Combat died at 48 years old. Although I have more than a decade to get there, It’s not far away. I have so many “Haven’t done yet” moments on my life’s bucket list. Things I didn’t do because of time, money, work or cause what others may think. That’s not living. It’s definitely not living for me. Moving forward in life I’m not going to let anything stop me from at worst case trying and failing. I could die any day. I don’t want that day to come and leave all the things I planned to do on the universe’s table. I will no longer live with 99 Problems over 3 Wishes. The world is attainable. I’m about to conquer the world!
The life I see is but a few steps away. It’s time I make a run for it.
Condolences to the family and friends of the Legend, Combat Jack.
Seen a post from Conway on IG
I guess I’ll never meet Prodigy
Never meet the whole Tribe in their entirety
So we can all take a picture
With my first CD
I cried walking home from Church
The day Biggie died
Imagine Heavy D
Is one very cool guy
Still got time to tell Nas
He inspired my life
Working on LL
Meeting my Mom this time
And Also Mary J
Can’t Forget Daddy Kane
Hopefully 50 Cent
And Big Homey Jay
It’s so many to name
Like a great X verse
Me and Mico got to meet him
And recite all of his words
I’ll bring Unc along for that one too
I just want to make rap dreams
Before our time is due
I spent a good portion of today thinking big things. Clothes I can’t purchase. Cars I can’t afford. A life that seems unrealistic and man has that been fun for my mind!
I’m over being practical, realistic and keeping my mind within the realm of my “living means”. How will you ever get more if you never think about getting and having more? What is inspiring about not being able to escape your own reality and keeping yourself in the mediocre world that you should be trying to elevate out of?
Whether you call them dreams, goals, aspirations or a “To-Do List” make sure it is something that is larger than your current life. Anything we want in this world is attainable. If you feel it in your heart, think in your mind and it lifts your spirits positively. It is a real thing that you should work for. You should work for it to achieve it and feel accomplishment that you acquired it. Then set your sights and mind on something bigger.
Go and get more. Go and get it all. If you don’t, you’re going to live mundane and die. That sounds weak as hell.