Hustling Backwards

I often talk about creating a better life for myself, being a resource and working on my terms. It became crystal clear to me today that I have been hustling backwards seemingly all year. It’s truly a situation of trying to change my mentality, yet caught up in the conditioning that society has instilled in us all.

The dumbest thing I’ve done this year…Is look for a part time sales job, instead of selling the product I’ve already created.

I have a book, I have shirts, hoodies, socks and soon hats! I have 2 podcast over a year old. I should be selling those every single day! That’s the money! That’s the opportunity! That’s how I’m going to change my circumstance!

It also solves my “what to do with social media” question. Find creative, innovative and cool ways to sell all this lifestyle, conversation and experience. If I don’t sell it, who’s going to buy it?

It’s my fault. I allowed myself to become a safe, trained worker. I read how to get out of that and allowed myself to drift back into that state of mind. Getting too wrapped up in thinking a job would help me fuel my dreams and change my circumstance. Worried about getting the money for the dreams instead of pushing the dreams to get to the money. That’s not what builds true Entrepreneurship. It’s also something I can’t do part time. I got to at it every single day. The old product is new to someone else. Also, if it gets too “boring” or “mundane” I need to do my part in switching it up. It’s all on me. I’d rather sell 2 shirts for me than 100 for someone else. Yet, I was still looking for somewhere to work in hopes of selling more of my product to leave, SMH.

I been hustling backwards. I’m ashamed, but I’m fixing it and now, I’m ready to do this right and for real. I have plenty product for sale. Product that will allow me to live the aspirations and affirmations that I read twice a day.

Get ready to support and believe or get completely sick of me. I’m officially clocked in.

At My Desk…

I’m here, on time, putting in the work and unfulfilled
I have no problem with the task or most of the people
I just don’t want to be here

I do enjoy the sports talk and positivity
The jokes and camaraderie
The free food and holiday gifting
But this life just isn’t me

I’m feeling the urge to leap
Like a toddler on a playground step
No fear and pure delight on my face
As I enjoy the simplicity of what’s next

The fear in my chest has dissipated
The new courage to live emancipated
My mind wandering like the pollen of spring
Knowing anywhere I could happily be

I want to create, earn and do for me
I want to live breathe and truly see
A life that some do and many read
The power of knowing I work for me