Your gift will make room for you
When you ask God for something, you need to fallback and listen.
Fear and God do not occupy the same space
– Dick Gregory
I ask God for a lot. I ask for so many things that sometimes I feel like I’m not even saying real prayers or taking time to be truly thankful for what I do have. What I also noticed is how God has moved in a way for me to achieve. The way he is doing it is through creating time.
Somedays my phone doesn’t ring or alert at all if it isn’t my wife. Somedays I’m literally sitting in my chair thinking of “what needs to be done today”. I also can think of an idea and have just enough to start. It’s all rooted in available time.
Social media and it’s notifications are all optional. Even more time provided. I can now say that in a lot of ways on more days than I am happy to say, I’ve had enough time to reach or achieve a lot of the things I’ve asked God for and haven’t made the most of that time. It proved to me that my focus isn’t as great as I want it to be. October has been a month of enlightening and now I much continue to make the most of that enlightenment. Moving in to 2020, I won’t be the same person I was in 2019 and I will be worlds away from who I was in 2010.
I stood in the mirror today and thought to myself, I love who I’m becoming. I had no clue how much self love I lacked. It’s beyond “not being suicidal”. Are you happy with your life? Your look? Your health? Your body? Your hairstyle? Your career? Your job? Your friends? The information you receive? All of it is an extension of self love. I’m becoming more in love with myself and my progress everyday. It’s causing me to push harder and gain new and great information to help me.
God has removed so many things, devices and people out of my way so I can see all that. Now it’s on me to maximize God’s provided time. Thank you, God.
I just had revelation on the way to bed, so I’m back up to write about it…
I’ve spent the last week or longer talking about wanting to get “more” and earn more money and wanting better for myself. Since I’ve said that, I’ve been getting tested at my primary job. My patience, my attitude and my willingness to “play nice” is all under attack. It’s under attack in the form of a person. It’s the only logical way to explain what’s been happening lately.
I was just telling my wife earlier today that I’m obviously being tested. I just couldn’t put my finger on why. Now, it’s more than obvious. I’ve been pumping that positive reinforcement to myself and now God is moving. I asked for “more” and “better” and now, he’s preparing me to have that. There is no triumph without tragedy. There is not testimony without a test. I’m in the process of being tested to get what I have been asking for.
Now I know why I didn’t hit send on that email yesterday. I know why I didn’t force the issue of a fiery conversation in the meeting today. When I had to step out, with the day almost over, just to give myself an encouraging pep talk; I understand it’s God helping me cope and not forget about what I’ve been asking for.
Although the test is in full effect, I still got to put in effort to make it happen. I’m not going to let up. In fact, I’m going to fight harder. I’m going to climb out of this darkness to shine brighter than ever. It truly is my time and I must stay ready and firmly on my square. Nothing is going to stop me from getting where I want to go.
Strive to be God Level…Cause even God at his highest level is a servant of others…