“Still Skinny Fat”: A Self Love Story

Today I went for a physical to get a discount for my insurance and I got disappointment yet encouraging news. That news was that I am back up to over 250 pounds. Yeah I had my clothes and belt on…but they weren’t 15 or more pounds! Although I was very disappointed in myself, it made other things make sense. My new fatigue issues, sleeping later and missing my workouts and of course looking at myself with more displeasure than delight the last couple months.

The lifestyle of maintaining a fit body is difficult when you don’t see consistent results. I have to decide today that my want for a great body and most importantly great health has to be bigger than the discouragement I have when I don’t see results. I been saying I want a “Ravishing Rick Rude Body” for years now and although the last year has been closer than ever, I am definitely a lot farther than I want to be.

My doctor told me to lose 13 pounds and try to get 150 minutes of exercise a week. Challenge accepted. I really want to crush that 13 lbs by the end of the month!I was so disappointed and motivated by today’s news that I went for my first mile run of the year. I used to start running in Spring; Now it’s almost fall and I’m just now taking my first run. That’s a glaring sign that I haven’t kept my promise to myself to get in the best shape of my life. It’s ok though. I’ve recognized the failure and now it’s time to make it fuel for the fire I have to get back to where I left off and take it further.

My next task is to find some lifting routine that turns my belly fat into lean muscle. It’s time I stop falling short on the biggest self love challenge of my life; My Health and Wellness.

Wanting No More Pain A Year Later

Exactly 1 year ago today, I was in pretty bad shape. If I remember right I had over indulged on Brats and Chicken and needless to say I was feeling it. The day of, I was fine. The two days after I felt completely out of the game. I had unbelievable aches and pains. It was unexplainable, but what I definitely was sure of was it was all linked to the foods I was eating. I know through some of my social media posts some people didn’t believe me. Even laughed at the notion that food could be causing aches and pains in my body, but I knew it was fact. The only way to prove it was by discipline and elimination.

It was on this day, I made the decision to stop eating fast food and ground beef. Along with that came the decision to drastically cut my pork consumption and dairy as well. With these changes along with cutbacks on fried foods, chicken and red meat, I increased my intake of fruits and vegetables. What I would find is the pain leaving my body slowly and undeniable internal changes. I was healing, with no medical treatment, pills or creams.

Along with the above I started reading up on holistic healing, medical marijuana and the positives of CBD oil. I came to some very eye opening revelations. I’ll talk about those at a later time.

Today, I want to take time to pat myself on the back for a job well done on a journey that is far from complete. I listened to my body and made the changes it was telling me to make and as a result of that, my pain has been minimal to nonexistent way more than half of the last 365 days. I say that and I’ve had a hernia surgery that put me at half speed for about 4 weeks.

I’m no Vegan, but adopting more plants to my lifestyle, eliminating fast food and eating meat sometimes no more than 5 times a month have served as great positives for my health. I can safely say that I am stronger and healthier today than I was at 25 and feeling no more pain.

Gratitude for My Level of Wealth

Randomly this week, I’ve had this thought on my mind…

I’ve been broke for a long time. I’ve changed jobs, career paths, schools. Then I started changing my attitude, mindset and focus.

I won’t act like much has changed, but it has definitely made me realize that I need to have gratitude for all the things that I do have. I can only acquire more if I truly appreciate everything that is in my current reality. Recognizing the wealth of having a family, a well functioning mind, and an able body that can take me anywhere I want to go. Those are major blessings that I take for granted. I am wealthy beyond many peoples wildest dreams just for those things alone.

Yes, monetary wealth would be great, but I really need to appreciate the wealth that I already posses while living my one life.

With No More Pain

Yesterday it became painfully obvious that my body can’t handle eating meat and animal product like it used to. That pain became literal and worse than it has been possibly ever. I been having severe fatigue lately. The pain in my back, legs and now even my arms has heightened. I just feel bad and helpless.

Even with me giving up the fast food, pork and ground beef this happened. Which means the culprit is the Chicken and Turkey I had Sunday and Monday. I’m no good to myself or my family in this kind of pain. I no longer want to feel this kind of pain. This was the revelation. The wake up call. The beckoning to make concrete changes to my lifestyle. So that’s what I’m going to do.

Right now, I have to let these toxins leave my body. Put all the good I can in and push all the bad out. Then increase the will power, consistency and dedication to reach my ideal fitness goals inside and out.

The road to end pain and inflammation begins again today…and will never stop or detour…

Health Evolution: Leaving Pain Behind

I am in my 7th day of less pain. It feels great, but there is still more progress to be made. Last Saturday, I took what is now my last bite of pork for the rest of the year. I have to do it. I literally think that was the leading contributor to this literal pain in my neck, back and shoulder. I’m sure I had a little too much to begin with, but I don’t think eating any food should be hurting my body.

It hurt so bad that I couldn’t workout. It gave me a feeble feeling and it was literally slowing me down. My fatigue was off the charts and I was exhausted for no real reason. Feelings that I hate feeling because there is so much to do in a day, especially with me chasing my goals.

As I threw the last few brats I had in the garbage, I was determined to get better. Getting better meant sacrifice. It meant change. It meant doing things I never thought I would do if I wanted to get the success I wanted to see or in this case feel. I’ve never thought I had to give up eating certain foods. The last 7 days have made it obvious I have to in order to get my desired results. As the hours and the days went by, I could literally feel my body detoxing. The more fruit and water I digested, I became more alert. The more vegetables I ate, I began to purge more of the bad that was inside of me. It was a real release of toxins and new energy was in it’s place. Don’t get me wrong, I still don’t quite feel like myself, but at least I don’t feel as bad as I did 7 days ago. That’s how I know this is the right move.

In addition to the pork, I decided I’m done with ground beef. I’m just over it and I’ve never been that big of a fan of it. I passed over free burgers the day I ate those brats and polish’s. I’m also going to limit my dairy. I only say limit, because pizza is a vice. I’m not as bad as I used to be, but it definitely is a great battle for another time.

Outside of giving up pork, another hard task is no fast food for the rest of year. The convenience alone is going to make this difficult. I don’t know what I’ll do now that I can’t take advantage of the latest Popeye’s special on some random days. I have to put myself to the test though. It’s just not good for you long term. Plus the money spent adds up quick. That money could be used to self invest, save for a trip or sit on it and do nothing. All those options sound better than that temporary crap shoot of indulging in fast food.

Lastly, I think I have a hernia. I feel the same symptoms I did when I had one 16 years ago. A couple other pains I have are just not going away. They feel “better” but the goal is no pain and that may require surgery, if my feeling is correct. I’m looking for a doctor to get checked out soon.

I say I want this success. Now, God is asking me, “What are you willing to do for it?” Ridding my body of the pain that it carries daily, is my first step in showing him. It’s time to really go after my Health Evolution.