The King of The Ring keeps going and we will definitely only have 1 winner for our contest. Cam is out and Bang really be knowing as we talk it out. We spend time talking about the newest makeshift tag team and how Andrade is bringing out Charlotte sexy. All that plus Bang’s All Out review and the timeline AEW is on to compete with NXT on this Labor Day Weekend #FBCPod!
I woke up this morning very excited for potential and opportunity. As bittersweet as the weekend was, I can’t act like I didn’t make the most of it. I did all I could to get everything I wanted, made the smartest future move possible and I’m proud of that.
I am looking forward to putting myself and my family in a better position. I am ready to never have down moments like the one last week. I know there will be down times, but specifically not for the reasons last weeks down time occurred.
All this is stemming from a great opportunity on the horizon. I’m excited. Super Excited! I have a vision in my mind of how this can and will go. I am prepared to take on this opportunity and go to great lengths to make it happen. Every opportunity is truly based in patience and preparation. You just got to stay dedicated to making it happen.
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Yesterday was very draining emotionally. I took myself down quite a few notches. I went to a place I honestly thought I wouldn’t be again, but I needed it. I needed it because of the self reflection aspect. The puzzle pieces I put together clarified the picture I want to see for my life.
If I can’t lose 40 pounds by NYE, then I can’t save at least $20 a month. If I can’t do either of those, then I won’t be able to take family trips or complete projects I’ve started. These things are all lifestyle based and rooted in discipline. They can be done simultaneously, but it all starts with wanting those things more than anything else. It will be sacrifice on the way to these goals. I will have to think about tomorrow’s finish line before I give in to today’s desire. It’s a tedious journey and every single day counts.
Yesterday, I sat wondering what my passions are and how can I profit. At the same time wanting to leave the position I was in physically, mentally and emotionally. I was clouded and jaded. Disappointed and a shell of myself. I became very mad at myself for the position I have put myself in. What is clear this morning is that nothing was going to get solved in that moment. No positive breakthrough was going to come while being in that place. A clear positive, conscious mind is the only thing that can spark appropriate growth. I’m in better spirit today. I will move as such. Answers will come and I will make things happen. I want so much, but haven’t sacrificed enough to get it. Since that is understood, it’s time to execute as such.
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I’m in the process of altering and canceling my weekend plans. Trying to do the right thing and the smart thing is leading to a severe let down. I’m trying not to beat myself up over this, but I have nowhere to look but in the mirror.
I really have to change my life and circumstance. I’m so tired of this. I feel like a loser right now. This is a real fail. A fail in the category I hate to fail in the most. The only thing I am clinging to is the fact that I am going to find someway to make this happen. Just not on the day I wanted it to happen. I had to make a decision. A decision that was bigger than myself. A decision that was meant to break the cycle that I was once stuck in. While I want to applaud myself for making what I truly believe is the right decision, I’m disappointed in what the right decision effects. I never want to let certain people down. I never want to “can’t do” for certain people. I’m truly not where I want to be and this is just a reminder of that. I have to continue to push and thrive until this struggle is non-existent.
My mission is to never have to make this decision again. To be able to handle it all and then some. This is the very last time I cancel, change and alter for the reasons I had to today.
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Since I had my annual check up and physical, I been on a mission to go hard and make new changes. The main reason is because I realized I was no longer 240lbs or less and my doctor told me to lose 13lbs.
Sure, I had my clothes on but my attire for that day was definitely less than 15 or more pounds. Like many Americans, I’m considered “obese” for my height. At first my goal was between 225-235, but honestly today, I’m thinking of dropping it to 215. I think that would be a great weight for me especially with all the working out I’ve been doing. I even took time to Google what 215 looks like on a. 6’2″ frame and let’s just say not even Google could give me the dark side of that weight class.
How will I get there? Rededication and a new discipline challenge to start. I want to drop that 13lbs before the month of September ends and lord willing be at my goal on New Year’s Eve. So I decided that for the month of September I will challenge myself to do no alcohol, bread or white potatoes!
Alcohol is honestly super easy! I just want to throw that in there just in case I have that occasional “drink or two”. Absolutely no worries on this part.
Bread and Potatoes are pretty much staples in my current eating habits. Chips and sandwiches see me probably 3 times a week. It’s probably why I can’t melt this fat pouch completely. I’m so tired of seeing this meat pouch hanging! So I got to make this happen.
My plan is to replace that bread or potato with a green vegetable. It’s great for me cause it’s not too many green veggies I don’t like. I believe this challenge will stop my “progress plateau” and take my fitness journey to the next level. I’m officially giving myself 4 months to lose 40lbs! I believe that’s more than attainable if I put in the work! This plus remaining to keep dairy and fast food out of my diet are bound to help me get to where I want to be.
So here goes everything! New challenges for new results. Time to reach a new personal milestone!