My Daddy Goal

I believe it was two years ago. I typed a goal/affirmation down in my phone that simply said,

“I’m going to hug my daughter everyday”

I have not achieved that goal, yet. I think that not achieving this goal has lead to my indescribable incomplete feeling. With the passing of my grandma and how important she was to both of us, I really have to do all I can to achieve that goal.

Making a living was hard enough before the pandemic. For many it will become even harder. Relocating is a task within itself, but the distance we are apart would make daily travel very expensive and unrealistic. I have some real decisions to make, even if temporary. I know the great relationship I have with my daughter could be greater. It’s on me to push it to that level. This is a decision less about me and more about her and us. In this crazy time we are living in, I don’t want to be far from my child. I don’t want to have to finance a trip to see her. I don’t want her adolescent years with me to be sporadic and heavy technology based. As her father, it’s on me to fix that reality in every aspect anyway I can.

I will fulfill my Daddy goal of hugging my daughter everyday. It’s a must.

Daddy Can You

My daughter just asked how long I’m staying cause she wants me to take her to school on Monday…

And I don’t want to tell her no, but I have no way of making it happen.

It’s times like this where I would love to move at least to the same state as her to be more accessible. Now, that’s not even a possibility. At least currently.

So many things I didn’t think about when making life decisions. So many things I will pay for in tears even if they don’t run down my face.

No matter how you slice it, I’m in a lot of wrong situations. And I need to do what I can to make as much as I can right.

Daddy Can You

My daughter just asked how long I’m staying cause she wants me to take her to school on Monday…

And I don’t want to tell her no, but I have no way of making it happen.

It’s times like this where I would love to move at least to the same state as her to be more accessible. Now, that’s not even a possibility. At least currently.

So many things I didn’t think about when making life decisions. So many things I will pay for in tears even if they don’t run down my face.

No matter how you slice it, I’m in a lot of wrong situations. And I need to do what I can to make as much as I can right.