Camp From The Port: Episode 002: The Jewelry Box

This episode I get to sit with one of the #Chicago #Media #Legends! Mike MFN Love! It’s only my 2nd time talking to one of the guys on my “Media Mt Rushmore” but it was an amazing experience!

We talk #Veganism and my wife gave him one of her fire ass pizzas!

We also talk about #radio and he shares a story and gives me game about the industry as well as a deep dive on the famous “Birthday Line “now owned by WGCI. This conversation is why I still do this no matter what my employment status is. Thanks for watching and listening!

In 6 Days

In exactly 6 days my official last day working in a corporate radio structure will be 3 years old.

I remember every emotion I went through during that time. I was extremely hurt, angry, hateful and on edge. I felt disregarded, disrespected, unappreciated and felt as if I was suppose to believe I didn’t matter. Those kind of emotions send you on a whirlwind. One that is tough to recover from. All you have is revenge and payback on your mind. Your attitude is “fuck everybody that doesn’t fuck with me” and if it’s fake love, fuck you twice! I was there; Firmly in a hellfire and ready to scorch any being in my reach to their soul if they opposed me. Needless to say it was a bad time.

I had an idea of what I wanted to do, but in reality I had no plan. My exit strategy was accelerated and “help” was minimal or non existent. All the true planning I had was rooted in emotion. I was going to work, but the only actual plan I had was to be happy, feel better about myself and get in an environment where I was loved, respected and appreciated. I wanted to be all of those things so bad in an industry I felt I was born to be in. I was never trying to leave the game, just my environment. I never once thought that I wasn’t supposed to be in broadcasting. However, I did have no clue how I would remain in it with all the emotions flowing through me.

I wasn’t even sure if I should apply for media jobs based on what I had been through. I wasn’t convinced that “things would be different or better” changing companies or markets. I was extremely jaded on what would be the reality. I also looked at the people that “agreed with me” yet maintained position just fine. Again, I was jaded. It doesn’t matter how they function, it’s about me. How am I doing? What will I do to make things right for me? That’s what matters. Not how others words and actions don’t align correctly.

So many reality checks about this game and the people I met in it prepared me for life as I see it now. I understand that “family” talk is just business and many people will only help you as much as you can help them. That new understanding helps me never take certain things personal. One of the most valuable lessons learned was, Many people can’t really help you cause they can’t really help themselves. Some people are not where they want to be and have too much ego to help you get a step closer to where you want to go. That’s a couple valuable lessons of life and industry business for me.

My downtime back in my hometown gave me a chance to exhale and restart. I got back to working smart. Having no shame in starting from the real bottom and on the outside. Not being concerned if the likes, calls, texts and friendships got light or non existent. I wanted to be in the media and entertainment industry, not be everybody’s popular friend.

Fast Forward I work 2 jobs. One Entertainment industry related and making strides. I do 2 podcasts a week and developing a third. I’m writing my ass off, put out a book and the people that genuinely mess with me are still here. I WIN! I live for me and not the perception of what’s popping. Layla’s Daddy can’t be a lame in a quest for clout. Her Daddy works; And the work is the work!

I won’t lie and act like I didn’t try to go back to the place I once loathed. I thought a different market would be a good second chance for me. As the process broke down, it was clear that I would have ass to kiss, would need to “humble myself and be grateful” to be back, because I’m basically still a piece of shit human being to a few too many people that still hold power there. Another valuable lesson learned. My desire has changed so much that I know our paths will cross again. I’ll leave it at that.

In 6 days, it will have been 3 years since I started over. On that 6th day, I will be in my hometown around family, love and with great peace of mind. Everything I was searching for when I pulled up 3 years ago, in my hometown, in the middle of my family reunion, with no career, but plenty of faith.

ICB Reflection…10 Years Later [Abridged Version]

Image by Jorge Guillen from Pixabay

From My Facebook Page

June 8, 2009
Cam P is informing everyone that as of Now THE SILVER MIC will not be happening because North Beach closed today…sorry we just got the news today

That post above came at the worst possible time. It was part of a snowball effect of “bad” that I was hoping would lead to some good and soon. Let me start somewhat from the beginning.

North Beach was a night spot in Downers Grove. I had assembled a team that I thought really wanted to help me further my rap career through throwing theme parties. We had two successful shows, but by the 2nd show, it was clear a couple people didn’t mess with me and the decisions I was making. Add that to me not taking a dime out of the first party earnings and putting it all into the 2nd party and well, people showed their ass in ways that was very unbecoming. Things go from bad to worse as I get info about an underage drinking bust that happened that would temporarily close down the venue. What does that have to do with my ICB reflections? Well, I was planning on using my cut of the money to pay for school.

I was a fresh 28 years old and even though I pretty much hated school, I had just recently enrolled at the Illinois Center for Broadcasting’s Lombard Campus. Why? Because I hated retail! I was tired of my life as it was. Plus, music wasn’t really as fun as it used to be. By 2009, I felt many people bailed on me in many aspects. I was going to broadcasting school because, it was a new avenue and a new chance to make something out of myself doing something I felt was cool.

I kicked 2009 off flirting with the idea of getting my Masters. Long story short with my retail schedule and financial status, I had no idea how I was going to make that happen. That thought and a conversation would lead me to meeting with a guy named, Tim White. He would kick a bar to me that would truly change how I lived the next 10 years. “Cameron, if you really want to be in radio or television, I can get you there with less time and a lot less money spent with getting your Masters.” Say no more, I’m sold. I’m broke, but I’m sold!

I really entered ICB with a lot of hope. My original plan on Day 1 in class was to get all the info and knowledge I could and land myself a radio gig in Dallas, Texas. That truly was the plan. I learned Day 1 of class that Dallas is a “Top 10 Market” and that I truly may need to be great to get that look. That didn’t shake me, it motivated me. And from there, I was off to the races!

“It’s not what you know or who you know; It’s who knows you” – Rich Renik

Looking back personally, 2009 was a really depressing and life changing year. I was truly in search of something that would keep me in positive spirits and make me happier with life. What I found was the heaviest drinking year of my life, unhealthy weight gain, erratic anger, sex as a healing and coping mechanism and more debt from a new school. The silver lining of it all was I was enrolled in ICB and love me or hate me, I was killing it! I became a standout student to know of, in a very talented class of individuals. I really felt I was pushing my creativity to another level in another avenue and it made me a better person for it. It felt good to excel in another lane but in an entertainment connected industry. But much like other instances in 2009, when it felt good and I thought I did right, something would go left, even in school. My mouth and my passion for what I do and seizing opportunity almost got me kicked out of school. Some “lady” was trying to go out her way to “humble me in the radio game” because she didn’t like the fact I told her and anybody who had anything to do with me not being able to do N.L.E Radio with J.R. Bang on a very important day to Kill Themselves. If I remember right, she printed out the FB post and gave it to the director of the school, potentially going out of her way to “end my career before it starts”. The very cool thing about me is knowing how to make people feel a written word I’ve given. My apology was overwhelmingly strong and kept me in school, despite her wish to have me gone. From that day, it was clear that I would have to overdo this because even if I felt it came easy, some people were destined to make it hard.

I went from Broadcast Enemy number 1 to Best Broadcaster Male, with perfect attendance. I felt I was respected on a whole new level. I was deemed one of the students that would definitely “make it” out of our class. Which is the best class in ICB history, June Days 2009.

I would go on to finish ICB, have an internship and land a full time radio job with a classmates assist in 12 months. That’s still considered remarkable based on how hard it is to get an “in”.

Truly I was beyond blessed considering the state I was in physically, mentally and emotionally. Did a make a lot of mistakes? Yes. And I’d make them all again because they all put my survival mode to the test. Real life, I’d make a few more. That’s another post for another time. I didn’t tell y’all about things like the girl we thought got nabbed by the Craigslist Killer, the slanderous vmail from a dude that was dating my co worker from a job I held, 6 years prior. We didn’t discuss “The Purple Dress night” the 4am call, or the day my daughter was conceived and how one persons lie had me speaking and living false truth. SPOILER ALERT! That’s probably all going to make one of my next books. No way I can give you my full ICB experience and everything that surrounded it in one post. I do look forward to sharing with you soon though.

A lot can happen in a year and I didn’t realize how real that statement was until 2009. I’ll elaborate when the time is right.

First Black Champ: Just Protect Brock and Ronda

Summer Slam is on the way and we got swerve predictions on deck! We also have special guest, DJ Boogie D on the show to give us his SS predictions and also how he wants to know if Vince McMahon is racist or just “out of touch”. All that and who we believe is the greatest Intercontinental Champion so far on this weeks #FirstBlackChamp podcast.

2 Career Cam

I hope this post finds you well today. I can’t deny. I am doing pretty fantastic. I started a new career path this past Thursday. I am officially back in the wild world of transportation. It’s great because this is one of the opportunities that I was waiting on for literally 3 months now. They told me the hold up was moving pieces around and finding a great fit for me within the company. Something I don’t think I’ve ever heard, but definitely appreciate. The people have been very nice, the work life balance is amazing and I’m 3 miles away from the building! You can’t tell me God isn’t real and that he isn’t smiling on me. I plan to give it my all since this is what will pay the bills. I know what’s on the other side of opportunities like this. 5-12 dollar an hour part time jobs with no benefits or warehouse jobs that wear and tear you body and your weekend. It’s been hard to maneuver doing those and trying to cultivate my passions and projects. Now, I just got to get back into a better more consistent sleep pattern so I can stop walking around half dead and increase my productivity. It’s going to come so no worries on that.

My contribution to the world of broadcasting would mean more if Logik Classic became a notable success vs if I became a great asset to a media corporation…That’s what I woke up and thought today. Yes; I definitely talked about wanting to be “back in radio” and “working for a company”. However, I was foolish to overlook the fact that I already am and do. I am the Program Director for Logik Classic. A streaming radio station under the Logik Media Group umbrella. It’s been official since January 1, 2018 although I’ve been working with the good people there since Fall of 2016. I can cause a great wave and strong outlet if I just put in the work and effort. I can do radio the way I see it vs doing it the way I’m told to. I don’t think you can ever really change the culture of corporate radio, but you can change the culture of radio by creating something new. That’s what I want to do. I like the spirit within that. I have to go all in. Now, I have my evenings, nights and weekends to do exactly that. The greatest thing about this is, I don’t have to depend on this to “pay the bills” or be a mind blowing success ASAP because I already have a source of income that will provide. I can do this and be free. Create, take my time and be patient. I wouldn’t want it any other way. Well, unless I had a rich relative or friend that was dying to invest.

Enjoy your weekend.

Acting Derrick Rose

It’s amazing the revelations I come to throughout the day when I have time to think or overthink. I just realized that I be acting like Derrick Rose about music format radio. Meaning I want to be in it and be great but a few occurrences that lead to some pain and uncertainty about my future in radio has me at “one foot in and one foot out some times”. I don’t know who to trust, if I should trust and I’m not sure if I took for granted what I had or spent too much time being taken advantage of. Either way it’s probably been the ultimate red flag for anybody that knows me. I’m sorry about that. I guess I’m still searching for that definite role in the industry around great people that makes me happy.

For the record I would love to get paid to do radio again, whether music or talk format. I’m also not stuck on being an on air personality and haven’t been for some time. I just want to be deeper in the game, working and earning full time. I will definitely do things differently and approach the next opportunity like I never been here in many ways.

I just been through some things. Things that hurt and things I didn’t expect. Today let me know that there is still some healing that needs to be done. I understand why it’s hard to look out for me. I try not to use my references and recommendations every single time. I know this climb back in the game is one that will have to be made predominantly on my own. I don’t mind that.

As I think over my future more I just pray to heal and move on. May God bless me with a clear mind and thicker skin. May he bless me with the opportunity that is right for me and let me grow into all the things I can see.

…Just wanted to share something honest…Have a great evening.