So subliminal and bold
All the energy switch
First time I truly felt like, Fuck This Bitch
I don’t need this shit
I just need to relax
Cause I ain’t missing out on nothing
I can’t get right back
Oh so you all that?
I could never do better?
The worst moments of your life were when WE were together?
Bitch that sounds kind of clever
But it really ain’t facts
I probably missed something greater
Cause I didn’t text back
It’s women not talking to me
Cause they didn’t get your chance
Some just wanted the pipe
And I ain’t take that dance
But that’s just my bad
Trying to do something different
Building animosity cause I’m deprived of my wishes
And the man that I should be is not apart of your vision
So fuck it…
Let me see what’s up with some other chicks then
I’m in an odd space today. My grandma passed this year and honestly, a lot of my personal life has come tumbling down with that moment. She’s gone, my Mom and I got into it over a personal matter and although there’s been no hostile angry or bitter exchange, my daughter’s mother and I don’t have the greatest relationship.
On this Mother’s Day, I’m going to take the time out to look in the mirror. Understand where I’m falling short. Looking at what I want and how I go about getting it. Where is my focus? How can I build and maintain better relationships with women? Sometimes making yourself the common denominator is the only way you will reach true resolution.
With that being said, let me think on what to do with my time today. Let that time to think today make me better for tomorrow.
If you are a mom or if you’re expecting to be a mom, Happy Mother’s Day. You perform a beautiful act of God and we should respect, love and secure you because of that alone. Condolences to everyone who has lost their mom or the mother in their life. I know a day like this or any other special day can’t be easy. A sincere prayer for you to cope will be said by me today.
Happy Sunday. Happy Mother’s Day. Love
I don’t feel like they said I would…
Today, I took my own advice. I got the fear out of my chest. I stopped my poor misguided actions that were wrapped in “people pleasing” and told my truth. It could change things forever, but it had to be done. Things may get worse before they get better, but me not being me doesn’t help anybody.
I can’t hold back. Someone else’s one life is just as important as your one life. You got to be accountable and responsible for your happiness. Sometimes that means making sure that others are happy around you.
It’s truly wild to have so many FB memories with people I don’t speak to anymore…
So many full blown conversations, laughs and memories shared. All seemingly meaning nothing now. It’s honestly sad. You go through life thinking that some people will always be around. That the moments that brought you together create an inseparable bond, but you’re wrong. I understand nothing is forever, but it’s just a reminder how death isn’t the only thing that separates us. One day, we will live, laugh, love and function in our same space and place and there will be new characters in the story of our lives. The old characters will have spin offs. You may make a cameo appearance, be a flashback or not even have a seat at the production meeting. For better or worse you may truly never know. It’s going to happen though. Just prepare yourself for the day.
Nas was right…”Love Changes and Best Friends become strangers”