I think it’s time I stop chasing money. I say that because of my fear of once again being in insurmountable debt. I had an expense that I couldn’t pay cash for and well, now I’m a little more anxious than I was in say June of 2019. I had to charge that expense. Two things popped in my mind when I did this.
1. I am not buying a car anytime soon. I’ll lease or walk.
2. I need to find a way to get this money ASAP!!!
As I get prepared for the day today, a Jadakiss lyric popped in my mind.
Soon as you start chasing the money, that’s when the money start running
To be real, money has been running my whole life. It’s been running my conversations, my aspirations, my fantasies even my career. Now it’s running my family and my mind. I have to stop that today. I realized my purpose and that gave me the peace I needed. Now, I got to make sure that my purpose runs my life everyday and not money.
I live in America. A Capitalist country that runs on the Almighty Dollar. Even with that fact, I can’t let the dollar run me. My purpose is to be a resource and I can be that no matter what is in my wallet.
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Today is day 1 of recognizing my purpose as a Resource that operates with Gratitude.
This morning was different. My visualization was not about accumulating wealth. It was about me operating in my purpose and how it will make me feel. It was about me drawing the energy from others that I have contributed to positively. The thought of that feeling was great. Like it was actually happening in that moment. That feeling was different than the anxiety and impatient feelings I get when thinking about acquiring money. When I visualized operating as a resource, I felt like there was more than enough time. I felt like it would be accomplished daily even hourly. There was no pressure or suspense because I know I can get this done no matter what the circumstance.
I’ve help people when I’ve had something, next to nothing and when I felt I had everything. It never changed. I am hoping that recognizing that and moving with it in mind as an everyday contribution will give my mind some freedom from my focus on wants, needs and temporary have-not’s. I look forward to sharing new experiences and revelations.