I’m literally just happy to be alive at 39…
4:21 to be exact. What a blessing it is to be alive on my 38th Birthday. I know too many friends and family who literally didn’t it make to even an hour before this moment or the day of. It’s a constant reminder to make the most of my time.
I so inspired and encouraged to LIVE! Although I am celebrating life, I can’t help but think, I’m going to die one day and when this game of life is over, I don’t want to look my God in the face and we both know, I didn’t leave it all on the floor.
I’m on a mission to turn every “What If” to “Remember When” whether good or bad. I’m going to do everything on my mind and whether I pass or fail, it’s going to be a beautiful chapter in my life. Unpacking and processing the last 37 years has been therapeutic. It’s truly showing me who I was and who I want to be. I can not wait to show myself to the world in all my glory!
38! The Snub Nose! 2 BEFORE 40! I feel better than ever, I’ve officially tapped into my potential and I think I’m SEXY AF!!! It’s truly a beautiful time! This year we prepare for new experiences. We face fear. We leap. We indulge, delight and enjoy in everything this one life puts in our way and we make it the blueprint of our life till death.
Yeah, I’ve lived an interesting and beautiful life, but now it’s time to turn up. By the number, 38 is not a milestone, but mentally it’s one of the most important years of my life. The last 5 years I have fed my mind some amazing things. It’s now time I put those amazing things into action.
Welp, time to celebrate! I want all the love I can get today and in every form! I would also love to give it back! If you acknowledge me and my life today, know I truly do love you for it. Thank you!
Check out my beautiful new site though! https://livingascamquotes.com/
And we can’t forget my Tees! https://teespring.com/stores/camquotes-tees
Then my book! Officially 1 year old today! #LivingInABeautifulDisaster
I’m also on the “Send Me Money Wave” too!
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THERE! 380 Words! Love.
I honestly thought Living In A Beautiful Disaster was going to be done and ready to sell by middle of April. When that was in my mind I thought. I would drop the book on May 4, 2018. Products drop on Fridays, so Friday was the date in my mind.
Then I started looking at the date and started doing “math symbolism”. For instance…
If you add 5+4 and 1+8 you get 9 and 9. 99 is how old one of the pieces is in the book. 99 is also the year I graduated high school at 18 years of age.
You add 5, 4 and 18 you get 27. When I was 27, it was 2008 and I seriously thought I wrote some of the best content ever in my personal life. It was in the form of a mixtape called “Thank You…I Try”. Some of the pieces from that project also are in this book. 27 is definitely a pivotal year of my life. Lot growing pains in many aspects.
Take 2018 and subtract 5 and 4, you get 2009. 2009 was one of the hardest years of my life. It was also my official refocus and career change. And it was in December of 2009 when my daughter was conceived. My battles with life, depression, self doubt and lost love and friends all surface in my book.
Needless to say the symbolism of 5-4-18 would have been dope, but it just wasn’t meant to go down that way. By May 4th, I had got the book, but I needed to make an edit to the cover. I caught an error in a piece and I made a couple changes to the gratitude list. Needless to say. It just wasn’t done to my high expectations.
In all that time, I seen a pattern and learned that traditionally, books drop on Tuesdays. I wasn’t going to make May 8th, but May 15th is next. May 15th is my birthday. As my life starts a new year and chapter, I release a book that gives you artistic moments of the last 36…Poetic, right?
It really was all supposed to be this way.