When You Write It Down

The wild part about writing down your vision, is that you may realize how far away you’ve put yourself from it.

A New Sacrifice

I’m officially on day 31 of thinking about what to do with my life. I’m refreshed, I’m clear and my overall demeanor is focused. This is all in the wake of a lot of lost, misfortune and expectations not being met this year.

I’m thinking about my goals and the life I see for myself and honestly, I believe there is one more sacrifice to make. This one may be deemed so crazy that I don’t even want to share in detail here. What’s clear right now is there’s nothing standing in my way and no one has the opportunity to talk me out of what’s in my mind. That may be the scenario that I’ve truly been asking for all this time.

What’s very real is my podcasts, magazines and shirts are what I want to do with my life. Every investment I can make to those is a great benefit. The question that remains is, how much of a sacrifice am I willing to put towards all of it? How uncomfortable am I willing to be? How much am I willing to put on the line to show how much I believe? I think I’ve found a new level that I am willing to go for all the above. There are still things I want. There’s a new level of sacrifice to get them. Every sacrifice is not meant to be understood or explained; So I won’t. I’m just going to plan and pray. My gut is telling me to step out on faith and do something that I don’t think many people around me could or would do. And maybe that’s all the reason why I have to make it happen.

My Daddy Goal

I believe it was two years ago. I typed a goal/affirmation down in my phone that simply said,

“I’m going to hug my daughter everyday”

I have not achieved that goal, yet. I think that not achieving this goal has lead to my indescribable incomplete feeling. With the passing of my grandma and how important she was to both of us, I really have to do all I can to achieve that goal.

Making a living was hard enough before the pandemic. For many it will become even harder. Relocating is a task within itself, but the distance we are apart would make daily travel very expensive and unrealistic. I have some real decisions to make, even if temporary. I know the great relationship I have with my daughter could be greater. It’s on me to push it to that level. This is a decision less about me and more about her and us. In this crazy time we are living in, I don’t want to be far from my child. I don’t want to have to finance a trip to see her. I don’t want her adolescent years with me to be sporadic and heavy technology based. As her father, it’s on me to fix that reality in every aspect anyway I can.

I will fulfill my Daddy goal of hugging my daughter everyday. It’s a must.

Oblivious…

Amazing…
Your incoherent nature
Aloofness to your surroundings and interactions

Incredible…
The table that turns only to your right
Or things will go left with spite

Unreal…
The victimhood you maintain
Residing in “Hoax Valley” with only others to carry the blame

Living…
In the mirror with no reflection
Unseen, unheard but still professing

What Will My Opportunity Look Like?

I saw a post from Steve Stoute giving his “10 Secrets of Success” this weekend. As a person who really admires Steve Stoute and what he’s done, it immediately caught my attention. One of his rules really stood out to me and I didn’t really understand why until I realized what had happened to me earlier last week.

“To get you want, you must do things you don’t want to do”

That resonated with me deeply after the conversation I had on Thursday. I started thinking, what will be that thing, I don’t want to do? Will be wrapped in a destination? Will it be with an undesired person? Will it be as simple as having to wait a little while longer and stretching time? I don’t know. What I do know is that I am excited to get what I want. So excited about getting it that I am not sure that there is much I won’t do to get what I want.

This is going to be a special year. I’m in a real special time and I’m hoping that I’m truly ready to pull out all the stops and take my life to a very special place. What will my next opportunity look like? I can’t wait for God to reveal it.

New Life Before Next Life

I read Joe Rogan makes 30 million a year for podcasting
I watched the impact Kobe Bryant made on the world being 3 years older than me
I was inspired by Nipsey Hussle’s plan and execution and I am 4 years older him.

Two of those men are gone. One of those men I’m inspired to be compared to. I won’t do that doing what I’m doing.

What have I been doing? Looking for jobs. Working on my shows maybe 2 days a week. Not creating marketing plans to build awareness of the brands that I hope to make profitable and independent. I got to stop all of this. I got to start a lot more.

I’m only 5 episodes in on a show that I am calling “My version of the Joe Rogan Experience”. That started last summer. Regardless of the circumstance, I should not only be 5 episodes in. I feel like I’ve let my respective teams down. I’m just glad I recognize it. This is supposed to be an everyday with no breaks thing. I’m just not putting in the adequate effort to get what I want.

So now, it’s time to execute by any means. I’m logging out of indeed. I’m going to start working daily on what I want. I have an outline. I have a structure. It’s time to execute and complete. If I’m as truly inspired as I feel I am, I expect to see great progress by Summer 2020. Talking is BS. Let’s see what the work do.